Isn’t She Lovely? A Boudoir Experience

When I asked one of my clients Miss M to share her boudoir experience she responded with a resounding “YES!” When I read what she wrote it brought me to tears. This is exactly why I’m so passionate about what I do here in our studio. It is so much more than pictures…here is her story

“I reached out to Megan regarding a session but as I mentioned MANY times, I was incredibly nervous. I had a session about 10 years ago and I hated every single one of them. I didn’t like the posing and I picked my body apart in every possible way.

My Boudoir Experience Went Like….

Albeit my fears, we scheduled a session. When I arrived, the first thing I said was “I’m nervous as hell”. During hair and makeup, I told me my husband had died a few years ago and I had been dating someone for a few years now.

Once, we started going through outfits I could sense the insecurities coming up. “Well I like this because it covers my legs” “I like this because it doesn’t show how fat I am” “Can you make sure you can’t see my feet?” I could tell this was going to be horrible again. “What was I thinking?!”

What Changed…

Something happened during my hair and makeup. I started talking to Megan and her team (hair and makeup artists) about my life.

Not only was I a single mother for quite some time, but now that my children are grown up I am insanely proud of them. I told Megan and her team all about their careers how driven they all are and how proud I was of them doing good in the world. I also spoke about how I always hyped up her daughter when it came to trying on clothes and dresses. You see, I had a mother who wasn’t very kind to me growing up and my body image became so skewed for me. She never said anything positive about her own body so her insecurities became my own. I told them my biggest wish is that her daughter grew up loving her body as much as she didn’t like hers. 

So I kept going. Every pose, Megan walked me through the entire pose. She did the poses with me. I was thinking “Oh God this is going to look terrible”. But I was not prepared for what I saw as she showed me the back of the camera. I was quiet but Megan was so excited. “Look how freaking gorgeous you are!”. It took me a while but I started to believe it. I couldn’t believe that person was me on the camera.

After the session was over, Megan got to work on editing my photos. Megan had said to me she doesn’t do a ton of editing because she wanted to celebrate me not change me. I like that because I hate filters but I wasn’t sure how much I liked my true self either.

The Reveal

When I sat down to do the reveal, I was not prepared for how I would feel. I felt tears in my eyes. “I have never felt so beautiful before,” I said to Megan. I couldn’t believe that person was me and I even said to Megan “That is not me are you sure?”. I had reservations about doing this session but the way I felt after, it was like a rebirth. I had a new appreciation for my body and everything it had gone through. I was honoring MY body. This is who I wanted to show my daughter that your body is to be celebrated.

I could not tell you how this session truly changed my life for the better. You may think it’s just pictures but this helped me see myself in the way my partner saw me, my children, and my friends. My partner constantly told me how beautiful I was and I just (as many of us do) brushed it off, uncomfortable with the compliments. But it wasn’t until Megan showed me photographic proof did I believed it.

I started off doing this session for my partner and a couples session but it turned out to be even more of a gift for me.

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